It's been donks!

I AM FINALLY 18 NOWW...!!!! ^___^
wahahahaha!! well been 18 in like... erm... over 20 days now haha
REALLY dont feel much older..
and possibly even more childish xPP  ahaha
hmm... so what have i been up to recently...?
arr.... planned 18th bday... go to 18th parties... haha
sorted out my digital portfolio... and sent it off today to unis!! =D Hopefully replies soon! =P
continuing to wathcing my tvb dramas... and generally being lazy xD

i've realised after quite a few parties i've been to these past few months
i have been VERYYYY close to my friends!! ^^ so happy!
esp the guys hahahahahahaha! xD i do love our lil girly chats with the boys xD
its so funny loool convos go so sexual these days...xDD

//Zxx~

18th bday partayy

I want to thank all my friends and relatives for turning up on my birthday!
It was really nice seeing old friends again! =D
as per usual... me + drinks = crazytimee!!! xD
I really had an awesome time!
I want to thank each friend individually for what they have done for me,
but the list will go on and on... so THANK YOU!
haha

//Zxx~

results...

blehhh results were alright la...
some of wht i expected...
kinda failed physics-ish...
but i hopefully can still take it on next yr...
just really dnt wna take art
just do it in my own free time
dnt like to be critisized coz i didnt even wna do it in the first place
let's jst hope i can actually concentrate fully on phys x.x
planning to become a non-social person the coming yr...
haha... dnt ask me to go out. ><
feel free to come and visit me tho mwahahah

been so busy recently...
redecorating the whole house x.x
my room is amazing...
wna expand on this topic more but i have no time...
busy busy busy!

//Zxx~

Bala 豬

hehe... love my cousins' doggy, Bala
she shoo friggin adorable!
really jealous of my cousins
they live in sucha expensive area
has an uber mahoosive tv
has amazing interior designs
lots of crystals EVERYWHERE in the house x.x
and pets i've died to have...
a incy wincy turtle and a small little dog
that will never grow big and rarely barks
haha
well i wouldnt want to have to go through trouble and look after them
but owning a dog is just uber awesomeness!

just going home everyday
being welcomed by my tiny lil pup
pouncing up and down by my leg
being wanted and needed
i like that feeling
can hug and kiss whenever i want

heard a saying that if a guy can look after a dog well
they will be a good father?
was that even the saying? i cant rmb xP
but it's cool
haha
i can imagine my cousin as a father
he takes care of Bala uber well
seeing his sweet side is really cute
i've always just seen him as a bully and annoying and never shut up cousin
lol
bala is literally like his daughter
so cute! ^^

//Zxx

HK TMR!

woopwoop!
finally this day has come..
cant wait to go hong kong tomorrow! yayayayaya!!! =D
but omgeee... need to pack tonight haha...
i got the majority done already, just need... erm... a suitcase? LOOL
jk i have one... somewhere...
o.O
anyways... hopefully i would still be able to go on internet some time when im in HK
as im waiting for a reply from a work placement in the architecture industry! =P
for a summer job anyway.
thanks to my beautiful keith bil gor, i owe him billions...
if i get the job LOOL
anyways... gna go back to work now...
spent the WHOLE evening typing my CV for this job haha

//Zxx~

Tech Day!!

woooo! i love our school's random teamwork days haha
today is our technology day at sixth form and we had to make a trebuchet (catapult basically)
out of the whole school only us sixth formers hired professional people from outside to help us with the day! ^^
awww... don't we feel special haha...

Well anyway, being in a team with Nat, Karimah and Caf, with honour...
OUR TEAM WON!!!! woopwooop!!!
We never thought it would be us because we only won in the longest distance one,
and failed in final round of war where we had to knock each other's trebuchet's down.
But we won out of complete overall teamwork and design etc! =D =D

When they said 'Team 4 is the overall winner' my team's faces were like =O *jaws dropped* in shock, we stood up, and went up for our medals and our prize was.... a tshirt! LOOL
but apparently there's also a day out for us when we're back for September =D BONUSSSS haha
last year was at thorpe park so let's hope we're at alton towers this year haha XD

//Zxx~

驚喜

Waaa.... remember that girl Rita...?
Well randomly at work today, as soon as i walked in, she gave me this very pretty crystal bracelet!!
^^ happy days...! xP
i was so surprised by this little gift and was like 'awww....x3'
but why....? i dont even know you... O.o
but she was just like coz she has two, and we can have one each!
didnt know whether to be happy or not...
i mean... we're not exactly like sisters or anything...
why one each?! i was begging she's not a lesbian... ><
i didnt want a couple bracelet... matching O.O ><
lol... just kidding... well... i dno... but let me be grateful haha
i do love the bracelet, i totally love crystal bracelets! =P
so pwretty!!! hehe and some have meanings which is interesting ;)
i was planning to buy some in HK but was thinking...
they mean more when i recieve them as gifts xD
i got three so far...
first two were from my aunts in hk, apparently the colour of them was for my star sign or something like that...
several years ago so i cnt rmb xD
and the third one... yu'know lool

//Zxx~

有愛有恨

I never thought there would be a day that i would actually hate you for even that one day...
Its not even the subject i hate, its just how you pressure me when i don't like a certain topic, i am forced to put up with you.
Then your partner dont help either, making situations worse when asking you like a billion friggin annoying questions that i dont even care about.
why bother.... just why?!
i mean its like not even my business in the first place anyway! who cares who, what, why, when, where they did it?! i just care that i do it because im in the mood for it!

so i decided to sleep in today, and miss my lessons with you,
i just cant face you anymore.
dont care what you're telling me to do,
i just refuse to go to you.
you just forced me to hate you

just another week to go...


//Zxx~

發現了他

nothing special...
but today in common room in our frees...
me and nat were just randomly doodling,
and our friend Greg decided to join us and he drew a random funny looking geek on the page xD
then it attracted this guy in my year who does rugby and he also joined in too...
surprisingly he was an A* art GCSE person! =O never expected that from him!
suddenly found him so much more interesting now haha!
we got talking and realised we have quite a few same interests...
before he decided to become a rugby player he was going to study architecture! :O:O!
he's also not a bad-looking person... and he's like 6 months younger than us but he's like uber tall! wahhh... tehee (well tbh, even the youngest rugby player looks like 20-odd years old xD) makes us girls feels even smaller x.x
but yeah anyways, thought he looked quite cute and sensible so we let him join with us and gossip together muwahahaha so we had a fun lunch time together and made a new connection ;) =D LOL

//Zxx~

家姐的感覺...

wahh....! SO CUTE ARRR!
last night, a friend (who i didnt expect of) told me she was dating this guy!!! AIGOOOO SO KAWAIII!!!
i knew it i knew it i knew it!!!! :D:D feel so happy for her...
i was the first to know aswell... really felt like a big sister haha ^^
only met her for less than a year and she already trusts me and tells me these things!
i felt touched and warm inside =] <3
_______________________________

also, it was my younger brother's induction day at my school today!!!
waaaaaaa... he's already in big school now... secondary school! xPxP
i feel so old...! x.x
it was funny when people were saying tht he's a mini-zoe xD
im like yeah... thts my sister ;) LOL
it was so cute and weird seeing my bro and my best friend's sister walking round our school,
they still seem so young to us!
well a difference of 6/7 years haha
but yeah... felt uber like a big sister, guiding them around...
answering their queries about the school ...
just soooo cuuuuuutee!!! >u< haha

//Zxx~

驚驚!

Wooo!!! Went to thorpe park today! =P havent been there in so longgg!
but omgosh... was way tooooooo hott! im like so brown now x.x
chest hurts too >.< burnt =[
but yeah... about the title...
im gna have nightmares tonight ;( as per usual
i kinda have a phobia of rollercoasters... but like i can only go on ones that are securely tight and safe (even though all of them are really... ) but i can definately not go on drops or spinney ones >.> scares the peepee outa me xS
but even though i do go on rides like colossus and stuff, at night time when i go sleep i always still feel like im on the ride, but with no seatbelts tht sorta stuff... my first few times after tp, i would go sleep with my nan, but as im trying to be 'brave' i now would have to squeeze a cushion by my heart to keep it safe. >.<

i want to overcome my phobia and really go on those rides... but i doubt tht day will come... my soul would probs escape before i even get on those sorta rides! xD

//Zxx~

新朋友!

well... just a new waitress working at my dad's restaurant. 

I thought she was rather hard working and easy to tame haha

tbh... she's the only one who works more than being asked to do, for the first night

hopefully it continues... 

jst ashame she's not fluent in english and we have trouble communicating to each other

another mandarin girl... ¬¬ but at least we can understand eachother more than angela does xD (the kitchen girl)

but as business was literally dead, there was nothing for Rita (new girl) to do, so dad just told her to wipe everything in the whole restaurant XD so instead of her being our waitress... she was our cleaner XD

but i do like her... her first impression to me was positive XD (she said i was pretty) ^^ *i get flattered too easily xDxD* but yeah, for the rest of the evening, we were just teaching each other mandarin and english XD she's good... at least she corrected my errors, luckily she understood wht i was trying to say xD but her english was quite bad... mum ended up laughing at us coz we were having so much trouble just trying to explain a little thing XD using gestures and stuff... i felt like i had 語言障礙 LOL! my tongue was so twisted by the end of the night xP

so lets just hope she'll be fully trained by the time i leave to go HK... 
otherwise i would be rather worried about my parents surviving 
without me xS

//Zxx~

RELAXATIONN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wahhhhhhhhh.... EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVERRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!

(shuda posted this on tuesday bt i cba to xD)

so wht has life been since exam are over...?

O.O

basically... as i have to go back to school everyday now for friggin A2 ¬.¬ its been really relaxing at school, just chilling with friends in the gardens with our little picnic blanket ^^ as no one has to revise anymore! THE RELIEF! xD the feelings TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO great! love it <33333

but then some gay teachers still sets us like loadsa hwk n its like mydaysss!!

-on sports day, we were lying outside, nearly got killed by javelins-

(see the willy? my frnd apparently saw it -.- xD thts hw childish we are xP)

and i swear i will become so fat its unreal now...

everyday after sch in this very hot weather i come home... chill on sofa... eat ice cream... watch tv... then nap till dinner... eat dinner... then go upstairs SAT down... reading  book or playing comp... not touching on anything else xDxDxD but i love this life XD so relaxed... hehe xP

//Zxx~

Saranghae MBLAQ !!

kekekeke! totally in love with MBLAQ the korean boyband now haha
well... was in love with them a few days ago but never blogged it xD
but yeh... literally love at first sight haha
as im not a music person, its surprising i LOVEE MBLAQ! xDxD
mainly coz i watched idol army which i treated more like a drama haha
but i've listened to all their songs (which isnt alot LOL) watched their MVs and everything about them haha
they totally have the faces of angels!!! Seungho, GO, Joon, ChungDong/Thunder (never know how to spell CD x.x), and MIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR <<<<<<< totally love himmm!!!
literally each member has their own charm... Seungho = leader charm , GO = sxc stache! LOOL , joon = sxc honey abs haha , thunder = CUTEEE baby face , MIR = his craziness is so cute =] haha
i've even started to learn a bita korean too! =P=P well mainly coz another asian boy in my sch also LOVES kpop so like he's always called me his nuna (older sister) so like we're both learning korean haha
and i also got my best friend karimah into idol army show now haha so jokes xD

(MIR, GO, Joon, Thunder and Seungho) 

//Zxx~

Being replaced T_T

wowowowoa!! hmmm.... =.=
me replaced? O___o  TT__TT
yeah... well its cute anyway... XP
I was unwanted by my nan this saturday =[
she ditched me to go shopping with her new best friend, Leung porpor
haha
well i am happy that my nan has a good friend now,
when she came back she was like oh leung por por this and leung por por that... oh she's such a nice person, so caring blah blah blah...
i was relieved that my nan has friends at this age =]
FEEL THE LOVE FRIENDS FOREVER!
<333333333

//Zxx~

awww

anyway... on a happier note... silly mei girl got me totally in LOVE  with mblaq =.= so hottttt!!! omg... i wana go korea now hahahahaha... only to see mblaq... i dnt even listen to their songs, just watch them with their cute faces and sxc body on idol army! =P gets me uber excited all the time xD
but yeah... kinda pushed revision all to the side... >< only four more to go!!!!

OMG! also... awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!! saw one of my primary/secondary sch frnds todayyy!!! >w< havent seen her since we broke up for colleges. knew the girl since reception all the way to yr11 =P tho we werent best of friends but we've had our special moments haha... she's so uber pretty now, so grown up! i rmb when in little sch we were childish and bump into eachother penguin style! O.o dno how but yeah... haha now she has her future all already planned, moving out when she's 18, full-time working, engagaed already O.o, etcetc... just so jealous of her life... -wonder how my life will turn out to be O.O-

//Zxx~

妒忌及羨慕你

O TO THE M TO THE G O D !!!! OMYYYGAWWWWWDDDDD!

你真的超漂亮arrr!!!! ~ 超級妒忌你!!!! ^^

my best frnd just had her braces off todayy!!! she so prettty arrrrr~~~!!!

.. hOhOhO~ (not supposed to sound like santa)

i've always admired her beauty... if she entered miss fillipines...

she wuda DEFO won! despite her height xD

她真的迷死人啦!

Not only she's pretty, she also is so clever and gets like the best grades naturally... !

Im very uber jealous of her... -.-

She's like the most perrrrrfect person on this world!

So glad we're best friends tho XD

anyway, back to subject...

im so happy for her that she has her braces off today!!!

feels like when i had mine off... that happiness gushing out of meee

hehehehe =P

//Zxx~

一天和你在一起 ~

Mwahaha! so happy that i got to spend lovely chat sessions with two of my really good friends today! ^^

even though we were supposed to be revising, who could stop them to stop talking!? XD i joke... i love listening to friends coz at least they are talking to me XD

was really interesting what i heard today... stuff i discovered... some quite weird... and... quite queer... >.O

meh i really enjoyed today, and wish i could do such everyday...! especially loved shopping in Tesco's buying grocery with Nicole, ^^ felt uber grown up =P d'yawww hehe  also learnt a bita cooking too from Nicole my master *bows down* LOOL (warning: use a bigger plate next time XDXD)

'Revision' time =]

Well we had a 'successful' revision time together... O.o

forgotten about the day, but it seems cooking comes to mind a bit XD

hahaha doesnt that look YUMMY! XD

兩送一湯! 哈哈哈!

Martin is also a hidden chef! =O

I have to say that although i didnt cook much of it, i CLEARED the MESS they made ><

well that's it from me today

//Zxx~

朋友的關係

I really really really REALLY love you!
I love how a few days ago you txted me first =] you havent done that since years... =(
Maybe i should thank your new contract? haha... unlmtd txts rules! XP
but chyea, even though our txting session only lasted within an hour and only a couple of txts sent, it really made me smile when you txted me first.

Since you've been going out with yur bf, our friendship has distanced...
Our time together has been less and less, and you wanted to share your experiences with your man.
I didnt mind, coz obvs you have your moments, i respect that.
But it only came to times when I was never told about something special/serious that happened in your life,
it meant the world to you, but i only found out about it till it was all over,
you used to tell me e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g.

At that time, i only felt that i was a friend just there to laugh with, mess around with and just there to listen.

But now i really do feel that unconditional love between us,
realizing that you've not changed, and i do mean something in your life.
You know i'm always here for you, and i will know from now on that you're always there for me =]

Please dont leave me... I will be nothing without you. <3


//Zxx~

Fancy~

Wahaha~! tbh... before, i didnt know how to blog with pictures, never bothered to make the extra effort to upload pics, attach... etc. but now i started... i cant stop! >< LOL From now on, (if i have the time) imma make this blog more flashy and attractive XD

Anyways, so as per usual on my saturdays, i get me food from McD's, but today, as my nan was shopping with one of her friends, she brought sushi but she never told meeeee...!  So i got McDs ISWELL!  ><

Anyways, i decided to share my lil feast with everyone on blogger ^^

Yes, i do agree it was a weird combination, but who knew chips goes well with soya sauce! =P

LMFAOOO!!! my brother just came upstairs and saw my previous post of his... er... drop down menu XD *i was strangled >.<* and he came and threatened me with old videos on his old old mobile... it was seriously an OLD video so we were very young... its an embarrasing vid... there was one of me singing a song i made up inspired by a 'bright light' (which was a torch my bro shone in my face when i was trying to sleep) then there were one with me and bro SO UBeR BORED that we filmed us playing IT with our feet and being stupid XD

I might upload on youtube if i can ever be bothered XD very embarrasing though XD such good bored memories with bro XDXD

anyways,, thats it for now...

//Zxx~

WTFFFF

what a stupid little brother to have... the drop down menu decided to give you away Smelly B!

Thanks JON...! i'm defo sure yu fancy charlotte now though... XDXDXD  (btw these were all the links my brother used, i dnt play dynasty war...? O.o LOOL

and chyea i spent about 2 hours trying to look for a good background today, found loadsa PON and ZI ones but for some reason yu had to fix the html yourself so i gave up on those so just left with this snoopy one ^^

David doesnt know what PON AND ZI ISSSS!!!! ZOMGGGGGGGGG!!! >___<

//Zxx~

The fun of Blogging

tehehehehe... yet another friend joins our blogging community... welcome you friend ^^

and wow... just spent my whole evening reading my bigsis' blog instead of revising x.x
dammit xD but it was worth it... i love knowing what my friends are like in a world i dont know them in :P its interesting =]

and ZOMG! this gay, very GAY person discovered my old blog and... just embarrasing... x.x luckily my other blog wasnt discovered tho... seeing as i forgot what that blog was called etc,, but the content inside scars me till this day. -__-

and YIU! stooopid gay xanga... cant upload a new pic... deleted the old fugly one but cant upload a new one ¬¬ whatta gay!

just another week of school left!!! :D:D well... till study leave... but chyea... 'revision time' must meet up with some frnds and do 'revision' xD especially the clever ppl, yu kno who yu are ;) tehee

well anyways... bum getting numb... need to get off my seat and exercise it a bit hahahah well ta ta for now! ^^

//Zxx~

Its the start...

Exam period has finally started... the days i dreaded since the start of september loool... had art exam today, already five hours done... should say it was stressful at the beginning because i started later than everyone else as i only got the board today so i had to go through the whole process of priming it and waiting for it to dry...

the remaining three to four hours were rather relaxing... i was so into my art that the sections i did were a bit too over-detailed than they should be >< because of that, i only completed half the canvas... another 3 hours tomorrow =/ hopefully i could finish it on time! (i also blame my daydream mode when i was goggling at other's work too, so amazing! its like WAHHHH O.O!!! ) lol

well lets see how it goes on tmr...

//Zxx~

great... ¬¬

gee... been a good girl tday and stayed behind for art for an hour, (exam next tue/wed) >< and was just randomly talkin to me art teacher... then she told me that she was gna go HK in summer!! :O:O x___x i was like O___O# lets just hope that i wont bump into her... LOOL

omg... had a phys test this morning... did so bad... i literally made up stuff for theories and 點指兵兵 on which equations to use... they were all the same... @___@ dam yu particle physics! dno how im gna take phys next year... at this rate... i think im gna get kicked out! 8__8

lets just hope i can get thru the rest of this year AND REVISE MY BUTT OFF__ like thts gna happen O.o

ahhh man... havent written in my actual diary since a month ago too.... x_X my mind's blank on literally the days i havent written anything in XS mehh...

//Zxx~

whywhywhy!

why are you so stupidly difficult to manage?!
why do yu have to ruin my life?!
why do yu have to KILL me! x.x
my brain is dead because of YOU

but i still love you, and hope that you can make me pass my exam =]

//Zxx~

so close yet so far

It's been a long time since i last posted as some may say...

its been a busy month, been working everyday... got my results x__X then FML! LOOL 2Cs and 2Us X__X major lectured by some family friend saying stuff i already know >__> *sighs* what can i do...? i wish i could just drop out of college, drop out of stress... and just live a happy life? obvsiously no can do... i may as well try my best so i can live a better future... but the future seems so long away... why cant i be those amazingly born intelligent ppl >< GAHHHHH... As my head of year keeps saying, there is only about 4/5 weeks left in college, my art is a fail... so much to do for it, but i just dont have the effort and energy to do... physics... i dnt even wna talk about. so depressing on the bright side... there is nothing. LOL hmmm... arghh... my ex tried on me again today x__x i satisfied him by letting him piggy back me from sponsored walk LMFAO but unluckily got spanked by lesbians behind me (i.e. my frnds) LOOL and SUCH A SHAMEEEEE tht i missed one of my guy frnds in sixth form waxing his legs!!!! came into sch after break then was told his legendary waxing leg tht pleasured everyone x__x SOOOO wanted to laugh at him in the face >___< next year... i will rip the poopoo outa him!!! lool

erms... so yeah... thts all i can think of now... so ttyl!

//Zxx~

Oh NOOOO....

i was gna put this on my facebook, but thought it would be too harsh on my brother, if all my cousin read it, but i had to let SOMEONE know!

basically... you know those quizzes or stupid stuff on facebook? well... i got several invites from my brother, with questions like 'What is youur sex postition' 'which toy to use for sex' etc... i was like WTFFFFFFF O.O i was literally so shocked wen i saw them but i laughed so hard i had a stomach-ache XD but oh noes.... my brother is growing up now, and loosing his innocence! :O :O

anyways, nothing else in life that's interesting so thats it for now! ~

//Zxx~

GAHH in life...

i swear im lacking nowadays... in everything... even now on blogger, i just dont have the effort and energy to do anything ><.

I just past everyday by being hooked into a tw drama or the tvb series, leaving all the homework and coursework aside - till the very last minute.

Going to work is actually my study time nowadays, its the only place where i can actually concentrate or at least get something done. Its natural when yu get stuck on homework, you ask your parents... so why does my dad has to be furious that i dont understand how to do certain things in physics or else?! Is it not partially your fault that you never cared about my school work when i was younger that you thought that im just amazing in my exams? There's no point blaming me that i dont know the basics! Cant you just bloody teach me it now?! and stop complaining about my studies! or why dont you just let me NOT go to work! LOL

omgosh! time for glee now...!

//Zxx~

SNOW!!! :D:D:D

OMG!!!! its snowing yayyyy! and even better=NO SCHOOL!!! tehee
although im missing quite a bit of revision time in school >< only just woke up iswell ¬__¬ 1pm-ish 死la~ (omg woohoo! my first chinese word in my blog, a bit of a negative word but yeh lool) i was hoping to still wake up early this morning so i could do some more artwork and impress my teacher, but i guess thats not happening *sighs* but yeh the snow isnt thick enough yet to impress me, but d雪洛在地上時,真的很美麗呀!~ (omg... that just took me a lifetime to type ¬__¬) but also, i have my exams next week!!! D: will exams still be on if you cant get to school? and im loosing so much revision time that i do in school where i can ask teachers for help! >__< and the stupid teacher hasnt even taught us D1's stupid algorithms properly, which i was hoping that i could of asked my other teacher this week! exam is next thursday! and my stats exam, need to practise so much with help in school, 天呀! 想玩死我嗎?!

anyways, i havent blogged much recently as ive been writing it all in my new diary of 2010! :D teehee! writing most of it in chinese too! oh yeah... such a good way of practicing chinese words without it being actual chinese hwk XD although my sentences doesnt quite make sense and most of it is more slang words XD it is so much easier writing than typing chinese LOL!

anyhoo, im off now to play some snow! and finally take down out xmas tree and decorations hahahaha!

ta ta for nw!
//Zxx~

New Years!

WooHOo!!! Finally the new year! 2010 here we are!

any new year resolutions?

er... maybe to stop eating snacks whenever i see food around XP
(i seem to eat non-stop biscuits and choccies at work ¬__¬ nothing to do, so i munch >__<) also... to be nice to ppl XP sorta failed already as i always talking to someone on msn and they mentioned these annoying ppl and got me started... >< but my hopes for this year? -try to be more socialable (which i means i should go out more!!! teehee) -also play less on computer, and when studying i need to CONCENTRATE. <<--very difficult XS -and hopefully learn to type chinese very fluently! =P (with mei's help ofc XD) -oh yeah... and ofc hopefully i can end up with good grades for my AS's (as my predicted grades are B but im getting Ds >.> joy...)

and yeh... so i think that's it XP

(oh yeah, did yu notice my new blog layout? hehe took me ages to decide on which panda layout to pick O.o i got another saved as my next layout too :P haha)

lots of love for the new year,,

//Zxx~